phwoar!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Friday, July 30, 2004
todae...same same..... wake up, go sch....had hist tut.... lesson at first kinda boring, spent most of it chatting w tiffy and annie....then last few minutes more intersting....we keep shooting her qns abt her life and all hahaha.....gary and e guys as usual e most inquisitive of the lot....ha. :P
then stay back to study....supposed to study w johnson, in e end he study e another girl, me study w nadiah.... well more like i study and she slp hahaha....then feli came....then sharifah oso came..... studied till like 5.....going crazy doing econs essay....darn becoming econs freak le hahaah..... dear dear.....
then finish econs essay outline......went walk walk w feli,saw johnson, feli go field, me walk w johnson.....walked into canteen....saw marc and zhiyu...marc on hp zhiyu stoning as usual....think is his fav past-time le heh.... then they ask mi go to jr lib w em instead of bb one.....sian..... hahaha.....so went lorhzz..... they go change i go field find feli first...johnson crapping abt softballs and his balls and wateva balls.....diaoz....think he study too much bio le ha....
then go jr lib....returned mists of avalon and borrowed mists of avalon.... :D hhaha....going to finish reading the bk le whee~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ the lady of avalon shall rule again!!!!!!!!!!!!! whee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! k im going crazee haahahah!!!!
then accompanied marc go kfc so he can buy dinner.... me and zhiyu stayed outside "bullying" wee teng hehe....so fun....ha. diaoz tt marc really old man le....want to buy dinner got no money....in the end borrowed frm mi and zhiyu.... took such a long time some more....zhiyu like want to fall aslp there.....ha. then finally after a centuary he came back w his food and we can go off....
took mrt back.....sat at platform and chatted w marc for awhile... then both our trains came so said bye and left.... ooi u idiot still hao lian watch king arthur le i hamtum u den u know!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! humph!!!!!!!!!!! bu yao li ni le.....
yah...tt all....came home and stone....haha....no la studied then watch bachelor, last epi....so stupid....so fake. sian. haha. now im here....k gonna check mail.... not gonna slp tonight!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahaha!!!!! too much moon tides in moi blood.... wad e hell am i toking abt??????? ha....
bleurgh....tirey....
Thursday, July 29, 2004
grandma went back to ipoh todae.... now i have my room to myself again....haha.... there used to be a time when this would make me kinda happy and excited.... cos this means tt i could have late night conversations w him andd we'd talk to like 2 the next dae..... not tt it should matter anymore....those days r long gone.... the good part is i'd have my good night sleeps again....but still.............i'd give anything for those days again......
oh well.....me eyes r troubling mi again....they've been hurting the whole day.... plus mi vision has been kinda blurred....sigh....had to blink lotsa times before it'd clear....sigh....
dear dear...the 5 stones craze has rampaged moi house again..... gotta teach moi bro how to play again....sian....ha. been so sian this daes.....
ooi!!!!!!! moi new bf!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! when can we watch ella enchanted?????????? huh nad....nutter!!!!!!!!!! hahaha~ *hugs*
sianz ar!!!!!!!!!!!
Wednesday, July 28, 2004
arh....yesterdae was damn pissed....thanks to my junior....but i shall not tok abt tt.....dun reallie want to. todae once tr found out wad happened, she nearly dragged me to e principle's office to complain, but i din want to....then she and wenhui spent a whole lot of time lecturing me in the canteen....sian....felt like crying.... or rather nearly cried....i dunno....hangover frm yesterdae perhaps.... but reallie have to thank them for their concern, but i think if u interfere it'll make things worse and more complicated....
todae....had eldds stepping down...lunch was crackers, oreos, a slice of cake, one mars bar, one twix bar, two packets of drinks and tt all....haha! power seh...... think we too poor le haha...... i guess i felt guilty for neglecting this cca for my council, but cant always have the best of both world....sigh.....
then studied w johnson and er....his friend....shit forget her name again!!!!!!!!!! argh!!!!!!!! ya then desmond came, then marc came, then zhiyu came so there were like 6 ppl squeezed on the benches......no wait....its 5 cos marc went to play soccer...(yes i know, im not stupid) studied hist....sian tmr hist test again. argh!
confused confused....im so confused. to be or not to be....tt is the question. i juz need an ans...... this way oso like tt....tt way oso like tt....sigh...wish i can juz dun care.....
oh well.....juz one thing for u: be who u want to be bah....u happi can le. honestly, why would my opinions matter to u? if u happy....then i have nth to sae.... u happy can le. do wad u want ba.
argh....have to research on personalities...sian....byez.
carnival 2004
Sunday, July 25, 2004
burnt mi pinky while ironing todae.....still hurts....cries....
went for aes carnival todae....wow! so much fun!!!!!!!!!! so many ppl!!!!!!!!!!!! saw so many of moi friends...............hehehe~ yah shen and luke togeda again, as sticky as eva.... :P
let's see....met chiang wei and min kang and keith, then went to walk ard, checking out the stores and all....so crowded seh haha....... lotsa stores too hee~ food!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! muahahaha~ tis yr dun have bubble tea, so sad. haha. no satay oso....or rather all sold out. tt class oni sold 300 sticks.... still remb my yr we sold more than a thousand, all hand made one some more hahaha. still remb i kept pricking miself while putting the chicken meat into the stick. haha. mi hands stank while doing tt. hhaha. mi bro's store sold lotsa stuff....mee siam(ok lah, but not filling! humph!), drinks, ice cream, ice kachang etc....haha. yupz. got candy floss, yam rice, popiah and all at other stores....wowie!!!! din get to check out the games though, ha.
met yvonne, she keep asking me to go do manicure, i say later...haha. jj's own store there heh~ courtesy of yvonne's and hwee bee's class. yup yup. toke to mr lee wei meng, he point his middle finger to show tt he could not do a manicure(it was bandaged)...haha. then oso saw mi baby daughter.....clare, dustin's ex....haha. she saw me kept screaming mummy. diaoz. saw amaedah too, din get to tok to her, becca,ziqi, andy, xuanfeng etc etc etc were oso dere....chat w em.....so many!!!!!! hehe~ stewart kept asking me to buy soya bean drink haha....quite nice. heh. den saw jennifer!!!!!!!!!! my prefect direct senior hehe!!!!! so kewl....joanne was oso dere, tt girl ah, saw me kept kicking me. diaoz. haha. shen and luke came too....heh. toked to em fer awhile then left, din want to be a lightbulb. haha. went up to mi old classrm w keith, met cw and mk there, we were reminscing abt those gd old times hahaha.....after awhile, this couple came up......so we went dere into the thick of the action again! ha.
chatted w mrs goh, mi ex form teacher! she's so happy when she learnt tt im taking lit now....hahaha. told her like a thousand times b4 le but she keep fergetting...ha. then she tried to get mi to buy bun frm her store, kept saying remb our satay store, but then i was filling full so i told her i'll come by later....din get to buy in the end cos it was sold out. ha. chatted w mr dennis lam too...mi prefect master.....chatted abt eng and lit hahaha~ so kewl. heh. mama chong wasnt dere.....so sad. din see mrs kng either. waved to mr tok, he busy. said hi to ms kit lee....she busy carrying baby hahaha. oh, din see mrs norman as well...haiz.
went up to the study benches.....chatted dere. remb we always study dere after sch....very breezy, quiet, nice scenery plus NO MOSQUITOES!!!!!!!!!!!! hahhaha~ diff frm jj's benches hehe~ meiling came and tiffany too....at tt time min wei left le...
got a glitter tattoo too....told yvonne din want manicure cos i dis kind, one dae later all gone le...hahaha~ so in e end hwee bee did tattoo fer mi!!!!!!!!!! so nice... blue and purple....wanted pink and purple but she couldnt find the pink so had blue and purple instead....not bad....quite nice. haha.
yuppies....then walk and walk round the food stores again ha....tiffany and meiling wanted to get food......at tt time already 2 plus, i had to leave soon....entertained shen and luke fer awhile, then they left. soon after tt me and keith left too...........
yuppies, so much fun!!!!!!!!! hahaha~ whee~~~~~~~~ really good to be able to hang out and have fun, even if only fer awhile...haha~ feel so much attachment to aes...but all mi teachers leaving one by one....sigh...soon there'll come a time when those juniors i know will graduate, and those teachers tt have taught me will leave....haiz....
oh, sowie zhiyu, but got no cute girls interested leh.....hahaha~ muz be u too les le....hehehe~ :P try harder next time lah k....ask u to come long time ago u dun wan. :P hehe~
okies, tt's it. yupz, got yelled at my mum after tt but still......... i had fun! whee~ now its time to hit the books!!!! chaoz!
college day 2004
Saturday, July 24, 2004
todae had college dae....truly last time will put on the blazer le....sigh......
reached sch 11.... saw baoyue and william in canteen, went to talk to em....then william left fer consultation, left me there w by and gerald..... felt like light bulb hahaha~ the two of them so funni.......
then was phototaking......whee~ fara was there!!!!!!!!!!!!!! its so good to have the crazy one back!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hee~ real nice to have her(no wait.....is him ha) back, and she cut her hair...ha. she ah...... made the already noisy place nosier.....hahaha~ wb brother! hee~
then went to bp to buy food, had mi fav hotdog ;) major 24th and 23rd gathering todae, felt so gd to be back w mi councillors, juz hanging out being crazy and having fun! haha..... yuppie....then after lunch, ushering duty starts! im stationed at the shelter at the anything stall dere.....so lil ppl walk by there seh..... stood there fer an hr stoning haha....... this yr din have cat to usher...haha~ still remb last yr me,feli and yunli ushering cat hee~ yunli damn funni lor, tried to get the cat to move, jump up and down, but the cat juz sat there and stare at him....hahaha~
afta tt, mi, feli and jess smuggled ourselves into lt5.....stood at the door dere, saw weijie and dennis, they sitting near dere....haha...... feli kept trying to take photo of the two of them...but they camera shy. hee~ i scolded dennis...well more like "mouthing-scolding".....say he shd stand where i am and let me sit....haha. shujun went to take prize fer ao chinese, wohoo!!!!!!!!! my direct senior rocks!!!!!!! hahaha~ then have chin chong oso went to take prize...... cacat took fer hist.....karen,millah,rosz and hafiz took fer council....wah screamed my lungs out....oh ya! still have jeanie and chin chong took prize fer long community service.... the validictorian's speech was oso really nice....sth abt how he was seating at seat f36 last yr, dreaming of standing where he is now and delivering e speech....and now he's there reading out the speech he began thinking abt while seating at tt seat! hahaha~ reminded me of the speech i wrote for my grad nite.... but didnt want to be e validictorian, gave tt role to maryam. haha. :P
then was lotsa huggies and phtotakings!!!!!!!!!!!! miss shujun....hee~ she's so nice, like me older sis like tt. wah finally i not the older sista or nanny or mummy or wadeva...hhaha.....finally got someone who act more like mi older sis hehe~
went into scar rm....sat there laughing like siao listening to apple....and millah oso.....fara crazy as usual....actually all of us kinda crazee la hahah~~ yuppies.... so much fun and laughter....yesterdae i was kinda looking forward to todae cos i knew tt i would have lotsa fun while working and i was rite!!!!!!!!! hehe~
then went to canteen to kapo food...muahahaha~ sat w silvest they all...diaoz jason damn crapper lor.... got one fat cat, one thin cat, one bugger.....actually alot of buggers hahaha~ crapped and crapped....hahaha~ yuppies.... oh and edmund was so full.... though he barely ate haha....muz be too much of e melon milk... heh
afta tt, went to watch the guys play soccer fer awhile, then had to go home le....went home w feli yup yup....hee~
tmr is er.....aes carnival!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hope i can go...shen ask mi to go w her and luke....i dun wan!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! dun wan to be light bulb!!!!!!!!! hahahah~ :P
k. g2g, chaoz!
juz another quiz
Friday, July 23, 2004
end of sth tt once was...
todae.... had econs test....suck...... read e qn le...want to cry... haiz...
oso....i told him my decision todae...we're no longer friends....it took me a long time to get to tt decision, cos i didnt want to lose a best friend, and my closest confidante.....but, i juz feel stranded being where i am, like a ship on dry land....so i made tt decision....... i guess some small part of me oso wondered if he will miss me...... but i'll nvr know will i? tt door is closed to me forever now.... juz wish him all the best....
god....i want to cry...but i cant. i have to be strong, put a smile on my face and act as though nth is wrong. they dont understand.
k i g2g, bye
it must have been love-roxette
Lay a whisper on my pillow
Leave the winter on the ground
I wake up lonely, is there a silence
In the bedroom and all around
Touch me now, I close my eyes
And dream away...
It must have been love, but it's over now
It must have been good, but I lost it somehow
It must have been love, but it's over now
From the moment we touched till the time had run out
Make believing we're together
That I'm sheltered by your heart
But in and outside I turn to water
Like a teardrop in your palm
And it's a hard winter's day
I dream away...
It must have been love, but it's over now
It was all that I wanted, now I'm living without
It must have been love, but it's over now
It's where the water flows, it's where the wind blows
It must have been love, but it's over now
It must have been good, but I lost it somehow
It must have been love, but it's over now
From the moment we touched till the time had run out
I Quit
Thursday, July 22, 2004
i hate my life. i hate all of them. i hate marc for messing me up inside, so badly that i can't even recognise myself anymore. i hate him for having the ability to leave me stranded here, between sanity and insanity. i hate my parents. they dont understand me. they always think im playing, or out hanging w guys, god, my mum even thinks im as gd as a pros! WTF! i hate her. and i hate my dad! they dont listen to what i have to say! all they think is im not studying, im playing, im not serious. if im not, why the bloody fuck did i come to jc for? just to suffer? i dont see the pt in living anymore. i guess this world is just too small for a person like me. i hate this. i cant stand it anymore! i want to just leave.... cutting myself, inflicting pain on myself wouldnt work anymore. i hate my life! i hate everyone who makes me feel so miserable, so useless! im HUMAN for goodness sake! cant you see....but you wouldnt care. you'll all prob be happier seeing me at a girls home, after all, you say im rebellious. im nvr gd enough for you! WTF. i dont care. i QUIT!
bleurgh
Tuesday, July 20, 2004
todae...nth much. ha. let's see...yesterdae, during pe, played soccer. ha. e guys were highly amused at the sight of girls playing soccer. haha. damn funny....spent more time laughing. ha. i sucked though...heh. :P who cares...hehe~ was more like e defender...ya. aiee....so malu.....hehe~ all of us trying to kick e ball hahaha...oni jasmine was gd....hehe~ e rest of us.....juz play fer fun ha. next wk, i have a strong suspicion tt jas and idayu r gonna drag me to play soccer again. haha.
deniece....poor girl. her leg kena run over by a car. stupid driver, cannot see got young girl cross the road izzit....eh deniece, go see a doc la.... is serious matter k....anyway take care girl, dun be so blur next time.
hmm...then todae...studied econs....having econs test on fri...sigh. ok la, todae quite productive, ha. gonna finish int'l trade and bop mcqs, tmr will start on the essays. yup yup. hope i can pass this time.
awighty, gotta go. mum yelling. chaoz.
Sunday, July 18, 2004
ah...my world has become more oppressed...whee~ my parents came up with new rules... im not allowed to have my hp from mon to thurs..... not allowed to go out w my best fran on sat....i feel so bad, so long nvr see her le,and i already promise her...but my parents make me break that promise.....cant go for my college day duties, cos my parents wont allow, unless mr ng gives them a letter. dont even think im allowed to go for assumption's carnival. they have cancelled their plans to go to bangkok becos apparently i have bcome a lost and hopeless case to them and i seem to have decided to fail my a levels, according to them.
i dont feel like blogging le. they will prob be changing my comp password next so i cant use the comp anymore. wadeva. do wad they will. im juz tired.
quizzies
Saturday, July 17, 2004
quizzies...im bored...
You are a child's kiss. Completely sweet and
innocent and pure. You mean no harm and only
love in your sweet kisses.
scared...
Friday, July 16, 2004
todae.... idayu gave me a heart attack. reached the classrm, saw her resting, thought she was tired. after awhile she asked me to accompany her to go to the ladies....only then did i realise that she was having an asthma attack....scared me out of my wits....i didnt know wad to do, and she couldnt use her inhaler cos she juz used it not too long ago....could only stay there and hold her hand and pat her back tt kind of thing.....didnt want to leave her there alone, wad happens if sth happened to her? so msg nisa, ask her to tell ms lim tt idayu having asthma attack, then nisa and jas came running, asked nisa to go back and tell ms lim tt she's not doing good.....ms lim came and helped idayu to get her breadth back....really learned sth..... ms lim and jas also tried to crack jokes to lighten up the atmosphere...ha... soon after idayu felt better, so we brought her to the sick bay. i stayed there w her.... so good, no hist tut haha.... toked to her a little before she decided to slp, then i sit there i look at her and then stone....then help her to cover blanket....all the way until break, then jas came in and i went out for awhile. ha. then idayu told me to go for econs, no need to accompany her le. when i went there again she was sound aslp, din feel like waking her up, but jas decided to. so she woke up and packed her stuff. supposed to send her home one....but she dun wan....say she can go off herself....but i sent her to the bus stop dere....
marc and zhiyu decided not to watch king arthur with me... i also have nth to say le.....
had lunch w lp, then went to study w johnson and his friends...then lp oral finish, went to jp mac with her, ate fries and studied there....not bad....haha.... tmr maybe go je lib w her and steven to study....hope can go *cross fingers and toes*
okie, tt all....tattaz....
i like this poem....thanks idayu....
from "10 things i hate abt you*(best movie of all time!)
I hate it when you talk to me
And the way you cut your hair
I hate the way you drive your car
I hate it when you stare
I hate your big dumb combat boots
And the way you read my mind
I hate you so much it makes me sick
It even makes me rhyme
I hate the way you are always right
I hate it when you lie
I hate it when you make me laugh
Even worse when you make me cry
I hate it that you're not around
And the fact you didn't call
And mostly I hate the way I don't hate you
Not even close, not even a little bit not any at all.
the end
Thursday, July 15, 2004
yesterday was my stepping down ceremony...in the morning, it was really drama. woke up at 5.30 to get ready, really lucky that i woke up early seh, cos mi stockings tore, then i had to change to a new one. then waited for a cab with karen for half an hour(sian ar!!!)...plus i forgotten to put a plaster on my blister, so i was limping all the way until i reached school....ha....heart attack seh.... was nearly late..... supposed to reach school half an hour earlier became reach sch juz in time for the attire check, cos of the stupid cabs.... karen was hopping mad....cant blame her, she's supposed to reach there really early cos she's one of the ics....
then the morning assembly....it was so sad... last time we will all be standing there.... reeally significant cos we're all in blazer attire and everything. the general exco did the morning assembly....ben and izean addressed the sch for the last time as vp and p of sc.... really really sad.....
at 9.25, mr liaow met us in the roc rm.... had a talk there, then he treated us to food from the cafe....still remember the first time he addressed us, he also treated us to food frm the cafe.....so he says tt what he started with, he will end with. tt's e significance of the food. so sad.... jess started crying then....
all too soon, it was 12.10....time to gather at the gym.....walked there, met with the others....short briefing by jess, took attendence, then we went to get ready. millah was really busy doing the gals' hair... ha thanks millah! u're a pro!!!! :) at 1.15, another attire check, then it was moving to lt5 to get ready....
so fast....soon ppl started streaming in....saw so many of my friends.... really thank u all for coming....deniece was my photographer for the day :). but she ar.... so happy to use my cam tt by the time the ceremony over, my cam battery oso died.... couldnt take anymore pics after tt...:*( haiz...
then ceremony started.... the usual things.... surprise vid (thanks juniors!), then we surprised them w a vid for them.... then was our walk-in, would have been perfect if it weren't for andre's mum who decided to join in our walk-in...haha...(those who wanna know come find me :)) then getting our certs....millah kept crying, i was like "dont cry, dont cry" out the corner of my mouth.... then passing of plague... then ben's speech....then we had to take off council badge..i wanted to cry then...but ren.... then curtains close...and i started crying while hugging millah... then we hug here hug there while outside, the 24th had their walk-in.... soon, we had to go out to put on blazer for them, went out w silvest. walked to kelvin there, juz infront of us, my direct seniors were sitting there. shujun was like, dun cry...and she squeezed my hand... kelvin oso hold my hand, so nice....thanks... i was so happy when shujun and joan came... thanks so much! then came the cue for us to put on blazer.... finish puttin on le, kelvin gave me the rose and the college pin....i saw it i wanted to cry again...it juz sank in tt im not going to wear the council badge anymore.... then we hugged, infront of mr koh some more, but who cares...ha. gave kelvin some advice and stuff, then came the cue for us to walk off..... yah... disappeared behind the doors, all juz cried.... then composed ourselves to walk out and watch our dear juniors walk up stage to take over us.... so proud of them. felt really really happy for them.... i guess it reminded all of us of ourselves last year....yah.... after the ceremony, we did a council cheer. yap.... then went for reception.
after tt, went to lt5, danced in our blazer and all...haha....we all crazy one. i love my counillors!!!!!!!!!!! will miss all of them....... it feels so weird now... not having anymore projects, no rm for us to meet early in the morn, no longer doing duties and all... i guess it has juz became a part of our daily routine it feels weired w/o it.
to end it all, we had a series of meetings, met my welfare comm....when it was my turn to talk, i nearly cried.... really really thank them for the support they gave me with lockers.....
then, it was dinner at mac! ya.... after tt, crapped, then went home w karen and millah. reached home at 11p.m. end of the day.... end of our term in council.... here's what i have to say:
to my dearest 23rd sc:
thanks for all the fun and laughter we have shared....i will nvr forget all those projects, those screaming sessions, cheers, tears, laughter, dances, everything... its been a great one year with you guys, all the ups and downs we had just served to make us bond with each other more. i will never forget oreientation 2003.....one of the best projects we had....i miss the orientation dances.... haha.... thanks for all the companionships, you guys are really the best friends one can have. thanks for everything. now, its time we move on and catch up with our schoolwork, a levels are coming guys, let's all work hard together! :) 23rd sc rocks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
to my dear student service comm:
hey!!!!!!!!!!! we're the best comm ard yah? hahaha~ most slack one....heh.
millah: yo dancing queen! real glad to have u in our comm, really liven things up for us. will miss your smiles, laughter and dirty jokes. haha. you go girl!!!! dugong rules!!! hee~
nisa: cacat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! one of my close friends...thanks for eveything.helping me, listening to me, etc etc.... u're juz great! keep smiling girl....no matter wad, i'll be here for ya too!!!! :)
chee chang: yo our comm head! frankie foo.... haha. mr slack ;) thanks for helping me with lockers k? not ur fault at all...... stay cool man...thanks lots too! :)
to felicia:
hey hey my closest friend in council!!! wassup??? hehe~ ha....tt bbq, who can forget.... all our saliva in the food....hee~ next time muz keep screaming at each other whenever we go for bbq k??? hehe~ my dance partner, thanks so much. had so much fun :) and thanks for being a great pal..... and my going home partner... and helping me with lockers stuff or ss work when u dont need to... u're the best! take care gal and keep in touch!
to my darling juniors:
hey! a new road has begun for all of you... wish you guys all the best! always remember that when the going gets tough, the tough gets going. stand with each other no matter what, with strength and unity, u can overcome the odds. set aside your differences, each and every one of you are unique and special to the council. good luck in everything you all do, always remember that the seniors are here for you. :)
to e new welfare comm:
hey! u guys are simply the best! thanks for all the help u guys gave to me...... remb, dun let urselves get bullied, dun be afraid to assert ur authority. stay togeda guys, u all are a great team!
to my dearest direct juniors, kelvin and nurul:
what can i say? im really really sorry for the mess lockers is in, and im so thankful to the two of you for staying back in school and all to help me....and so willingly taking over everything so that i can focus on my studies. the two of you are the best! love u all *muackz*
well....that marks the end of the road in council for us.... 23rd will always be here forever!!! haha! whee~~~ eh, when's the council dinner going to be arh? hee~ love all of you, and i will miss you all *big hugz and a BIG MUACKZ* all the best!
Say Goodbye - S Club
Oh Yeah,
In The Years To Come,
Will You Think About These Moments That We Shared,
In The Years To Come,
Are You Gonna Think It Over,
And How We Lived Each Day With No Regrets,
Nothing Lasts Forever,
Though We Want It To,
The Road Ahead,
Holds Different Dreams,
For Me And You,
Sometimes Goodbye Though It Hurts In Your Heart,
Is The Only Way For Destiny,
Sometimes Goodbye Though It Hurts,
Is The Only Way Now For You And Me,
Oh It's The Hardest Thing To Say,
I Miss Your Love In Every Way,
So Say Goodbye,
But Don't You Cry,
Because True Love Never Dies.
In A Year From Now,
Maybe There'll Be Things We Wish We'd Never Said,
Maybe In A Year From Now,
Maybe We'll See Each Other,
Standing On The Same Street Corner,
No Regrets,
Each And Every Ending's Always Written In The Stars,
If Only I Could Stop The World,
I'd Make This Last,
Sometimes Goodbye Though It Hurts In Your Heart,
Is The Only Way For Destiny,
Sometimes Goodbye Though It Hurts,
Is The Only Way Now For You And Me,
Oh It's The Hardest Thing To Say,
I Miss Your Love In Every Way,
So Say Goodbye,
But Don't You Cry,
Because True Love Never Dies.
And When You Need My Arms To Run In To,
I'll Comfort You,
Nothing Will Ever Change The Way I Feel,
Sometimes Goodbye Though It Hurts In Your Heart,
Is The Only Way For Destiny,
Sometimes Goodbye Though It Hurts,
Is The Only Way Now For You And Me,
Oh It's The Hardest Thing To Say,
I Miss Your Love In Every Day,
So Say Goodbye,
But Don't You Cry,
Because A True Love Never Dies.
sianz....
Sunday, July 11, 2004
played table tennis todae....not bad...improved.... ha...tennis improve, table tennis improve oso...haha... :)
sigh....looks like e whole progress report thing sucks..... lotsa ppl feeling the brunt of their parents anger and disappointment rite now....haiz.... wad can i say? all we can do is to get past this and work harder.... nth else we can do....wad is done is done, they cannot be undone.... the pressure's on, so is the race, its now up to us.... nth is impossible unless u say it is... dun give up ppl!!! juz think...... ard 3 more mths left till a's.... all the way!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! we can do it!!!!!!!!!!
*3 more days till stepping down.... sigh*
Look what you've done - JET
Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for you
'Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to prove
Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won
Give me back my point of view
'Cause I just can't think for you
I can hardly hear you say
What should I do, well you choose
Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won
Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for you
'Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to do
Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won
Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
liquid paper
Saturday, July 10, 2004
todae has PTS...sighz...on e way dere, got lectured by mum and dad... then reach dere, meet my teacher....tok alot, mi mum go and tell my teacher i was involved in bgr stuff earlier this yr....anand was damn shock...thanks ar mum....now im not allowed to stay back in sch till so late....and my hp is under intense scrutinisation, so is my comp usage...oh well....
yah and now they're considering northern uk for me....wadeva..... i dun take their words seriously anymore...
haiz....zhiyu very sad todae....haiz..... remb those liquid papers i gave to some of u??? juz came up w another usage for it while doing hist..... here goes: imagine tt wadeva prob u face is a mistake u made while doing a test. u take the liquid paper and liquid it. the mistake is as gd as gone, and u rewrite over it. geddit? its like erasing ur prob, overcoming it, learning frm it, then putting it behind and starting over.
so....tingren...gave u liquid rite? ha... hope u'll get over bhive and alien one day.... and meet some guy who seriously deserves u.... ur love life wont stay so messy anymore... ha...
idayu...(your liquid still w me!) get over him too....u know hu im talking abt... it takes time... and take care of yourself k? anything can call me...and dun care abt all those backstabbing bitches in this world, they're not worth it. not everyone we meet are diamonds, unfortunately, but there are a few... :) thanks lots gal.... love ya...
zhiyu... hope wadeva is troubling u will get over soon..... think u need more salty bananas on top of the liquiding ba... ha.... anywayz, really thank u for everything, anything feel free to call k... one more thing, parents r like tt... u wont die cos they're like tt, i mean look at me! haha... still surviving!
marc... guess wad i want to sae u know them all le.... well.... juz wish u all the best... hope one day u'll be able to liquid the accident away.... ya....
as for me...there's many things in life i have to liquid...him, e pri 5 & 6 incidents.... all the shit... depression.... etc etc.... thanks to all my friends who have been so gd to me..... u know.... im kinda looking forward to going overseas... leave all this shit behind...i guess only then can the real healing begin.... i guess only then will i truly be able to get over him....its much easier tt way... but for now... i have my liquid paper... no more there is always another one... juz hope i wont have to use too many ba, or else i'll go bankrupt... haha...
well...time to whack some tennis balls.... chaoz! happy liquiding everyone! :)
mean girls....love ya!
Friday, July 09, 2004
hey!!!
lay ping came to mi house todae!!! hehe~ b4 tt, we went to jp to have mac....then went to mi house.... she borrowed the mean girls vcd frm her fran, then we watched.... haha! so cool!!!!!! real bichy and bimbotic and all but it still rocks!!!! yah!!!!!!! chick flick!!!! whoohoo! im thinking, maybe i shd be more bitchy too huh...ha, then ppl wont step all over me...heh~ :P nah.... but then those plastics were teen royalty, though hated by many... heh~ plus, da goodie triumphs in e end!!! hehe~ and she gets the cute guy..... ahhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hehe~
then afta da show, we did steven's prezzie....haha... so fun.... juz doing jigsaw puzzle heh...:P got cheat la...shhhhhhhhh dun tell...heh.... worse still, some of the pieces were missing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so we decided to improvise, chu pattern.... we cut out the pics frm the box, then paste over one of da holes, but so as to not make it look so wierd and out of place, we pasted two others at seperate locations.... then at da bottom got one small stretch missing, so i typed out bd msg for him, then we cut and paste.... haha~ i put in soccer ball pic oso, so cute! hehe~ think he see already will sian diaoz...haha! but very funny lor..... very nice oso :D
she stayed until like 7 like tt, then went home, i sent her all da way to the old pei hwa there e bus stop..... wait for her bus... we talk and talk... so funny, last time we were in the same kindergarden, still got go to sunday sch some more.... but i dun remb seeing her leh... she oso dun remb seeing mi... wah!!! quite a no of ppl i know frm same kindergarden as mi some more... lay ping, vivien, man ping, kelvin etc etc...heh! small world... :)
julius came back! toked to him yesterdae....was like talking to my council juniors in the canteen, was telling em how i kept having to run in and out of da canteen to avoid gomez(he gives me nightmares....seriously), when i realized tt a grp of ppl were staring at me, then i look at em, hafiz waved, and this guy waved, then i was like do i know him??? haha~ then i realized he was julius! heh~ mi ogl...hahaha... so cool, still remb me heh! went over to tok to him, quite fun, tok alot some more.... his uni course wont start until march next yr.... ha, not so diff frm sg lah, muz wait fer 6 mths...he'll be studying at sydney uni, one of the unis mi considering....yup yup.... scarely end up being sch mates w him there hehe~ anw, he'll be coming fer the council invest next wk!!!!!!!!!!!! whee~~~~~~~~~~~~ muz take pic w him hahaha! :P
awight.... gotta go! tattaz..... parents-teacher seesion tmr....*shudders*....im so gonna get screwed... sigh....
bored out of her wits....and oh so tired....
Tuesday, July 06, 2004
ha....i think i did too much sit ups....heh.....been having tummy pains that are not like regular tummy aches.... more like overstrain the tummy muscle...haha.... dear dear... this is bad....
heh...oh and my sleepy eye still exists...i wonder why...
argh....cant watch mean girls this thurs...sorry gals.... but i have to allocate locker keys.....have to get them done by fri. :P
haiz....oh well....lets hope tt everything gets settled asap... sigh.....
went to jp with lay ping todae...walked round and round... tell u ar, i think im destined not to buy a bd pres for marc... first the shop closed down, next the stock ran out, todae the person told me tt they dont sell tt good anymore. darn. missed by a few days.... argh!!! sowie marc.....haha~ looks like u r MEANT to NOT recieve a bd pres frm me!!!! hehe~ kidding la....see i so gd, and u still dun wan to treat me to king arthur... HUMPH!
oh ya...there was parsat malam there....walked round w lp....saw this stall selling jigsaw puzzles.... whee!!! long time no play w jigsaw le!!! hehe~ some more quite nice.... arh, saw the jigsaw tt marc gave me...eh, discovered ur little secret le! HA! meanie.... :P
heh....bought steven's pres too! hehe~ lp gonna come over to mi house to touch up on it! whee!!! hehe~ oh and she go buy sth for her hubby, AGAIN. heh. like everytime i go out with her, she will buy sth for her dear....think i muz ban myself frm going out w her le, or else she'll go bankrupt one day...haha! kidding... :P
k tt all for now.....ooi! pls go to jj lms and post replies to mi new thread leh...the discipline one.... arigato gozaimasu!
sayounara~
untold story - me
She sits in a corner
Writing fervently in
The little black book of hers
This lonely heart cries out
For someone to hear
This untold story of hers
She always picks herself up
Whenever she was knocked down
The blows you gave
She took them all in
The inner depths of her heart
No one would ever know
From these dark corners
He came and said
"Let me be the one
Your heart cries out for
Tell me your story
Give me your heart"
Answering the desperate cries
Of her long forgone heart
She took one last glance
At the gloomy world she's in
Taking Him in her arms
She embraced Him
And opening the door
To her heart
They went away
Leaving behind that
Little black book of hers
This untold story
No one else would know
boredom
Monday, July 05, 2004
*boink*
*boink boink*
*boink boink boink*
*hint of excess boredom*
*yawn*
*zzzzzzzzzzzz*
note: let's pray that it refreshes and we can view this entry!
*wakes up*
*pray*
yah...this is lame....
being bored bored bored....
Sunday, July 04, 2004
ha i feel like james harthouse....bored bored....bored w studying, bored w this, bored w that, bored w life.....juz plain bored. ha. oh dear....have to find a male version of louisa to entertain me..... ha~ pardon me, too much hard times :P bin trying to catch up on my reading, tim dore gonna kill me if he finds out i havent finished reading it yet.... *bleh*
yoz, mi welfare juniors!!!! pic below!!! whee!!! hehe~ ya we rock!!! hahaha~ invest full-dress rehearsal coming wed!!! ba~ shd be changing the walk-in, peeps, last one le, let's all be there and give jess and karen our fullest support!!!!!!! 2nd last time the 23rd council and 24th council will really really be togeda for an event....sob sob......
new welfare com!!! yay!!!
i love this song!!! wha!!! haha!!! i love freaky friday too!!! hee~~~ juz watched the video juz now!!! cant wait fer mean girls woot!!!
ultimate- lindsay lohan
You're the kind of friend
who always bends when im broken
like remember when...
You took my heart and put it back together again.
I've been wasting time with clueless guys but now its over.
Let me tell you why...im through... i've got someone new just like you!
You're it,You're the Ultimate
It's automatic,im sure of it.
No lie,so dont even try
To tell me that you're not the guy
Cuz, i've been waiting all my life for someone just like you
But you're it,you're the Ultimate you.
You're the kind of guy who's hands is mine...
Send shiver's,up and down my spine.
You took my heart and put it back together agian.
You're the kind of guy that blows my mind
but now its my turn,you've been in front of me.
Everything i knew why didnt i feel?
...chorus...
...chorus...
...chorus...
You're it,YOU'RE THE ULTIMATE YOU!
the end draws near....
Saturday, July 03, 2004
todae.....had invest rehearsal....woke up, darn.....tt sleepy eye is still a sleepy eye.....make mi look so funni!!!! HUMPH! aiyo....hope on actual dae won't like tt.....
reached sch at 8.10....saw millah down dere already doing buns for those gals w long hair.....all of us suppose to do....then i thought tt since im like so early, can do for mi too..... ha.... in e end, i spent mi time dere tying ties or teaching ppl how to tie ties....diaoz.....so end up, nvr bun mi hair....wha!!!! so sad....cries.......
then invest rehearsal, jie chao, shirlyn and meiling were dere.... gave us comments and all tt...haiz..... was ok lorhz... but still can improve....ha...so tired..... frm 9 to 2 seh... hhaha..... in court shoes and all ha...... but fun lah cos we councillors crazee crazee one....crack jokes and all...haha... but then millah cried....naz too...juz damn sad lor, cos of the song. die la....rehearsal already feel like crying, actual invest think need water buckets le...ha.... the kelvin still can tell me not to cry, cos his parents will be there....he say he scared he see mi cry then he will cry too....ha~ i don't care...muz make him cry...hehe~ so gd, make guys cry haha~ kk mi being mean... :D
then have one time...we were having break, mi and feli were trying to lock the scar rm....but hor, the stupid key juz wont turn la....end up we were stuck dere trying to lock the shutter but it wont lock. then i ask feli to go get the 24th councilor to come and lock, left mi down dere trying to lock the rm...so pai seh....ppl walk past muz be wondering wad i doing....ha~
yupz....after rehearsal, stay some more to do lockers....i luv mi juniors!!! hehehe~ kelvin like very concerned abt mi like tt, he saw mi doing, then he force mi to stop, ask mi to dun be so stressed.... then he gave me free massage!!!! hee~ :D he scold mi if i do some more....:P ha but after tt he had to go do souvenior so i con't doing hehe~ but then later the welfarians came and ask mi to tell them wad they can do....kelvin says mi cannot do miself.....ask em to help too...haha~ so we divide the work lorhz... mi juniors so nice!!! hehe~ nurul oso was like cursing gomez haha.... oh well, they wont be having him as teacher-in-charge animore...ha lucky them. nurul, dun wori abt the money k....stuff like this happen all the time. next time keep it w you at all times k?? dun leave it in ur locker le....this time mi pay for it la....nvm one....next time be careful.....:)
i luv mi juniors!!! whee~~~~ muz give em big treat next time hehe~ *mUAcKz* WELFARE ROCKZ!!!!
spidey rocks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Friday, July 02, 2004
whee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! went to watch spiderman 2 todae w idayu!!!!!!!! definately cheered me up!!! haha~ din regret it!!! wundaful movie!!!!!! i luv luv luv it!!!! want to watch it again!!! hehehe~ kk....shall not spoil for ya....ha.....but so nice....hehe~ whee!!!!! and tobey is so cute!!!! hehe~
then went back to sch to do lockers stuff....my juniors so nice...all help me!!!! wha!!!!!!! thankies u guyz....couldn't have done it w/o u'all!!!!! u guys make doing this stuff fun!!!! hehe~ plus plus they so scared i bcome very stressed, all ask mi not to do so much.....sae they do....so nice!!!! i got such gd juniors!!! whee~~~~ hee~ best is, they all joined me and we had a gomez bashing session!!! ha! whee~~~ love u all!!! *MuACkZ*
full-dress rehearsal tmr! whee~~~ k i crazee le haha!!!!!! it'll be fun! whee~~~~
k, mi go do yet another hist essay le...ha...it nvr ends....sigh*
fed-up with everything
Thursday, July 01, 2004
ah well....todae met the class reps, not all turned up, in fact many did not. so i juz told gomez there's no way i can get the accounting done by tmr cos they didnt bother to come. guess he was pissed, but too bad. wat do u expect me to do? go be a psychic or sth? this one is not my fault, not my prob any more.
i cant do anything if they don't want to cooperate. seriously, i expected it. after all, why should they care? they can hand in stuff late and we can't do anything about it. if we take action against them, we get screwed by the p. either way, we get screwed. might as well get screwed by one person rather than a whole lot of them.
i cant be bothered anymore. u want to yell at me, go ahead. i've done what i can. it's not my fault that ppl dont want to cooperate.
broken pieces
hmm...todae's been normal so far...ha....as normal as it could get.
well...i juz want to let you know that i did not be your friend bcos i pitied you....i KNOW that you don't want anybody's pity, and i won't use pity as a reason to be friends with you. i dont see the point in being friends if that is my reason. get it?
you say it depends on me if i want to cont being friends w you. i'm buried 6 feet under with work, and the last thing i need is more probs, esp when it comes to relationship ones. this time, i wont kill myself with so many stuff. i have to get all the work settled first. i don't know what i should do. maybe i'll just kill my heart. happy?
i guess you're just sick and tired of hearing the same things all the time. guess everyone will be at some point or another. sorry to have bothered you. rest assured that i shan't bother you with such trivial matters again.
the only person you can ever trust is yourself. no one else. well, its just me, myself and i from now on.
broken pieces-me
you once said that you love me
have you forgotten
were those empty words
words that meant nothing to you at all
you used to hold me tightly
like i was the only one
i can still feel your arms around me
but it don't mean anything now
you,you,you had a part of my heart
you,you,you lifted it high and
you,you,you watched it fall and break
into a million pieces of me
you used to plan for our future
but now you have taken it all away
the future holds nothing
nothing for us to see,to feel
i've lost my soul since the day
you decided to go away
an empty shell i lie
here, close to insanity
you,you,you had a part of my heart
you,you,you lifted it high and
you,you,you watched it fall and break
into a million pieces of me
i yelled, i cried, you left me here helpless
i loved, i hated, now i've lost all hope
tell me how long it'll take
for the pieces to form again
you,you,you had a part of my heart
you,you,you lifted it high and
you,you,you watched it fall and break
into a million pieces of me
i love you.....
but it don't matter now